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November 22, 2013
What is something you wish you could experience again for the first time?

First/innocent love, with no fear of the wrongs that people do to eachother. No baggage, no looking for the signs of things you missed with your ex.. just innocent, naive puppy love. I miss the way that felt.
Now it’s all about these contrived rules that I feel take away from the experience. I WANT to show I’m excited and communicate a lot and fearlessly let myself just be in love. I WANT to devote my free time as much as possible to him/her and share all my plans with him/her.
It’s not about being needy or codependent.. it’s about being excited and diving in head first.

The abandon, and the smiles and the greed two people can feel for each other. I love being able to say anything and everything and just BE. Throwing yourselves at each other and scrambling to learn each other’s likes and dislikes. I wake up every day wondering if I’ll ever have that again..

April 29, 2013
apologize and make it better

There’s a distance between the things you say and what you do

Let’s just tell the truth

You lift me up then let me down

That’s no way to show you need me

The feeling lingers

But never long enough to make me believe

January 4, 2013
I can’t wait ‘til the day that I finally get to say,

taonglayas:

“Mom, you don’t have to work anymore. Relax. I can support you now. Thank you for everything that you’ve done for me.”

“What, you think your mom is too old to work now? What are you trying to say? That I’m too weak? Go away. I’ll do my own thing.”

it will happen exactly like this

Already partially there, but definitely always room for improvement.

Tired of waiting for a change

I need to remind myself to be thankful for what I do have.. and I am, for the most part. But there are moments where I’m not sure if I’ve just become so desensitized to this current point of my life or I really have become apathetic to my surroundings.

All verbosity aside, I need to get back to what allows me to express myself the best: singing. It is something I haven’t done passionately for a while. I haven’t completely neglected it, but nowadays it is rare for me to find something that inspires me enough to do so like in years past.

I need a change of scenery, preferably somewhere Samantha Brown has been. Yeah, that would definitely be a welcome change.

October 21, 2012
reflection

I decided to log-in to this blog of mine since I stopped posting a couple months back. Reading through my past entries, seems like not much has changed as everything I had previously mentioned is currently still held true.

One day at a time Marc, one day at a time.

May 28, 2012
growth

Whenever I feel bad, I use that feeling to motivate me to work harder. I only allow myself one day to feel sorry for myself. I ask myself “what are you going to do about it?” I use the negativity to fuel the transformation into a better me.

May 22, 2012
Life, interrupted

I come home from work nowadays and realize how lucky I am. Career-wise, I am on my way. This career I am in is draining, but the humbleness I realized through helping others has really allowed me to grow as a human being. Financially, I am able to put away a little every month towards the future. I may not ideally be where I want to be just yet, but I have a solid foundation on which to build and develop. Emotionally, I am very well taken care of. Family, good friends, love. Physically, I am in the best shape of my life since graduating.

Now I need to look into graduate school options. Do I want to go traditional or something more work convenient, like National? Decisions, decisions.

April 25, 2012
live and learn

With every new day I realize that in order to be where I aspire to be, I need to make sure that I’m doing what I need to do now. Live and learn Marc, live and learn.

April 21, 2012
one step at a time

there’s no need to rush

it’s like learning to fly

or falling in love

March 18, 2012
a beautiful day

take a moment to give thanks for who you are.