First/innocent love, with no fear of the wrongs that people do to eachother. No baggage, no looking for the signs of things you missed with your ex.. just innocent, naive puppy love. I miss the way that felt.
Now it’s all about these contrived rules that I feel take away from the experience. I WANT to show I’m excited and communicate a lot and fearlessly let myself just be in love. I WANT to devote my free time as much as possible to him/her and share all my plans with him/her.
It’s not about being needy or codependent.. it’s about being excited and diving in head first.
The abandon, and the smiles and the greed two people can feel for each other. I love being able to say anything and everything and just BE. Throwing yourselves at each other and scrambling to learn each other’s likes and dislikes. I wake up every day wondering if I’ll ever have that again..